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I've noticed that I'm not too into writing on this lately. It just feels like I write the same stuff over and over. I'm up, I'm down, I'm happy, I'm sad, I hate stupid boy, I love stupid boy...yada yada yada. All the same stuff over and over.
The same is true with my trying to reestablish the habit of journaling. I gave myself too much of a break over Thanksgiving and it's been hard to get back to it. Yesterday I wrote about how I did not have the motivation to write. I figure there's gotta be something to writing about not wanting to write.

I'm happy Christmas is coming. I only have a few more presents to buy. I have basically completed all my Christmas shopping online. It's nice. Stores are too crowded. It sometimes ruins my Christmas cheer. I wish I had more Christmas decorations. I put some more lights up and I have a buttercream vanilla candle that is absolute heaven.

I have re-started watching my Gilmore Girls DVDs. I really miss having TV. Although I get really tired of sitting and watching TV. I start getting stir-crazy. Then I think of how I'm supposed to be knitting but I only seem to get a few little rows done then get tired of it.

I'm tired of missing stupid guy. It's getting old. I'm tired of wasting my emotions, thoughts, and tears on him. He's not worth it. I've been doing pretty good but every once in awhile it all comes back. I need to remember to tell myself "it's his loss" rather than "why didn't he want me?" It's hard sometimes but I'm getting better at it.

Ok back to gilmore girls