Well life has changed again. The last two weeks have been a bit of blur for me. I found out the day after Christmas (when still in IL) that the woman I have taken care of since April wasn't doing so well. . .dying, actually. I was shocked. I knew that with her condition (ALS) she could go fast but I didn't expect it to happen so soon. I thought she had a few more months left. She passed away last Monday morning. All her family was there; her daughter held her hand. I got back from IL and went straight to the house.
The last week, I have gone in to help the family clean and pack up stuff and attend the funeral. They were really nice to me...they let me go to the family only open-casket viewing and ride with them in the cars to the funeral and cemetery. It's still so weird that this has all happened now. And I'm sad I wasn't there.

Of course, now this means that I have no job. I hate the idea of working in a nursing home again; I have considered applying at hospice. I know it would be hard, but I feel like I'd like taking care of people in their last days. I feel like I need to do something in the medical field but nothing I could do pays enough so I may also end up waiting tables or something. Hopefully I'll only have to do that for about 5 months and then I'll start school. I've pretty much decided that if I don't get into the PA program then I'll just apply to the Biology master's program. I can't take another year of waiting. I am trying not to worry too much though. God's provision has always come through when it comes to jobs and I hope that will be the case again.