Dreaming too big?

I just registered for Physics II. That's right. . .Physics. . .

I don't need Physics for the physician's assistant program. However, it is a requirement for medical school.

I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop wishing I could become a doctor. It seems too lofty, too risky, too big of a dream. . .but I can't stop thinking about it. If I wind up getting into the PA program, I will probably drop it but at least I'm signed up if I don't.

I may quite possibly be crazy. I will have to take the MCAT, of course, and apply to the Early Decision Program by July 1. I want to try to do that because I've heard there's a fairly high acceptance rate if you do (at least, at KU).

Who knows, I could end up staying in Physics, but take the MCAT and do horribly and not even mess with applying.

Everytime I start thinking about it, I talk myself out of it. . . takes too much time, too expensive, crazy work hours. . .but then a few weeks later I'm back to thinking, "I want to be a doctor."

We'll see.