Short update

I don't know how long the internet will actually work (just picking up on a wireless signal; most of the time it doesn't work) but I just wanted to give you all an update.
I got a job. It's at a hotel downtown and I started this week. It's not too bad; not that great either really. I'm still going to be looking for something better.

I'm glad I'm working now though.

So that's the update; everything else is going pretty good. Dave and I are still figuring out what our relationship is going to look like now that we're actually around each other now. Sometimes it's hard to figure out. But we're getting there. Me having my own life out here is going to help a lot and me having a job will help me have a life here.

I'll try to write again soon. I'm probably eventually going to change the name of this blog. . .I guess biology doesn't have too mucdh to do with my life anymore. We'll see.

Short update

I don't know how long the internet will actually work (just picking up on a wireless signal; most of the time it doesn't work) but I just wanted to give you all an update.
I got a job. It's at a hotel downtown and I started this week. It's not too bad; not that great either really. I'm still going to be looking for something better.

I'm glad I'm working now though.

So that's the update; everything else is going pretty good. Dave and I are still figuring out what our relationship is going to look like now that we're actually around each other now. Sometimes it's hard to figure out. But we're getting there. Me having my own life out here is going to help a lot and me having a job will help me have a life here.

I'll try to write again soon. I'm probably eventually going to change the name of this blog. . .I guess biology doesn't have too mucdh to do with my life anymore. We'll see.

Job interview!

I have a job interview Friday at a hotel. Hopefully that will work out. I need something! I'll have to get a 2nd job if I work there; it won't pay enough. But oh well. At least I'll be working. I wish Starbucks would call me; I could get free coffee. I miss coffee. The only coffee I get is at church on Wednesday nights. But nothing like a triple grande caramel macchiato. Starbucks would make a good 2nd job.

It stinks feeling so down when you feel like you should be so happy. I am happy, I just can't show it very well right now. I know that's normal. I mean, I did just pick up and uproot myself from what was familiar to a very unfamiliar situation.

I went to church last night. I've been to Wednesday night church twice and Sunday morning once. Wednesday night is just a group bible study thing. It was interesting. . .we talked about Saul (Paul) in Acts and how he went from comfortable life as a Jew to a believer in Christ. And how when that happened, Jews wanted him dead and believers didn't trust his conversion. He didn't belong anywhere.

I feel like that right now. I had gotten to the point where I wanted to go to church on Sunday and liked where I was going. I still didn't know anyone at the church; I hadn't gotten that far yet. Now I'm in a totally different church and with someone who is so comfortable and at home there and wants me to feel the same way. Which is fine but it's so hard. I've always felt that way in churches. I get a nervous knot in my stomach. I hope it goes away eventually.

Ok so pray or something that I get this job. It could be cool; I've never worked at a hotel before and this is one of the nicer ones in town. I think I could enjoy it.

stress

I'm stressed. I admit it. I'm also depressed. Especially yesterday. I slept until about 11 am, didn't do anything, except clean up my apartment (which is still not even close to being unpacked) and watch episodes from the first season of Grey's Anatomy (Totally off the subject, I can't WAIT until the 2nd season comes out). I'm feeling better today. I'm just stressed because I haven't found a job yet and I still feel so unsettled.
I told Dave I need to explore Wichita sometime. All I know is how to get from my apartment to his house, to his office, and to church. That's about it.
And I just need to find a job (or two) so I can quit stressing about money and actually buy some groceries sometime. And gas. I'm almost out.

I'm feeling better today but yesterday I was on the verge of crying most of the day. It's very frustrating going back to feeling so depressed when I had been doing so well the last few months. And not knowing how anyone can help make me feel better because no one has ever really attempted to make me feel better.

Anyway like I said I really am feeling better today. I really need a job...I'll keep looking and try not to worry.

I really want to be able to go to Starbucks and Chipotle. Especially Chipotle. Chipotle is good. I need rice and beans and guacamole.

Update

Unfortunately I don't have regular internet access. The only way I can get online is at Dave's office so when I can make it there I can actually check e-mail and stuff.
I got moved into my apartment Thursday evening. We drove to Denver and back on Wednesday/Thursday. I ended up crying a little when we left. I'm not sure why. A lot of things in Colorado ended up being different than I thought they'd be. I think I wanted it to be home but it was obvious it wasn't. I never felt completely normal there. I have only made a small dent in unpacking which is not surprising for me. I still need to find a job. The girlfriend of one of Dave's friends is the assistant manager at a hotel and she said they need people there so I'm going to go apply. I'm probably going to end up having two jobs. . .which I'm not looking forward to at all, but I don't think I'm going to find one job that will pay me enough.

I'm having fun hanging out with the kids; I took care of them most of the day Saturday. I know it's going to take awhile to feel totally comfortable with them but I like getting to know them. Katie and I got to hang out for a little bit by ourselves; she helped me unpack some of my stuff, then we went to Target. The boys are just boys of course. They love playing Star Wars on playstation and playing with their light sabers.

I've been a little stressed just with the big step of moving, not having a job, and everything being turned around...I think once I get into more of a normal routine I'll calm down a little bit.

I went to Dave's church for the first time yesterday. It wasn't too bad. I liked the sermon. As usual, going to a new church was just plain hard and uncomfortable for me. I had just gotten to the point where I felt comfortable going to my church in Denver but I still wasn't to the point where I wanted to be involved with anything. It just takes me time to be comfortable...especially at a church where I was already apprehensive (it's an AG church) about going. So we'll see.

So that's just a little update on what's going on since the move to Kansas.